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My only goal is just to be

By Me | December 10, 2005

I need a vacation.

I feel crushed, claustrophobic, burdened. I don’t really know why. Nothing in particular has happened. Everybody is still here, nobody is sick, no new catastrophies to deal with.

But I’m just so tired.

You know, nobody in this house really understands what I mean when I tell them that I’m an introvert. There are so many of them and they are all so noisy and boisterous and there isn’t a single hole in this whole house that I can crawl into for a few minutes to soak up some peace and solitude to rejuvenate my often bruised spirit. I do stupid things like stay up half the night so that, after everybody has gone to bed and I’m not being bombarded by half a dozen auras with frequencies that look and feel like a bed of nails. And then I get exhausted and bitchy and feel put-upon (because I am) and guilty (because I’m supposed to be able to deal with all this, dammit!) …

Okay, enough of this whining. I have work to do.

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4 Responses to “My only goal is just to be”

  1. Gina Says:
    December 10th, 2005 at 11:29 pm

    :( wah.

    I’ll be more quiet so you rest. Unless I’m singing with you. ***that note I just sang completely sucked ass*** OKay, going to bed now. ‘nite.

  2. dan Says:
    December 15th, 2005 at 2:54 am

    Oh, man, did you read this a few years back?

    http://www.theatlantic.com/doc/200303/rauch

    “Hell is other people at breakfast”

    (yes, I have a packrat memory)

  3. Me Says:
    December 15th, 2005 at 10:24 am

    Yes, as I matter of fact, weren’t you the one who posted it on your blog back then? I remember reading it and the scales fell from my eyes and I finally made a positive ID on myself as one of those introverts. In fact, I was looking for that article again because I wanted to link to it here, so … thanks!

  4. dan Says:
    December 15th, 2005 at 11:06 am

    Yep, that would be me. For a while it was behind a ‘money curtain’, but it looks like they’ve reopened it. There’s also a open copy here now: have http://www.learningplaceonline.com/relationships/friends/caring-introvert.htm

    You’re welcome. I’ll add this one to Whitenoise (my link farm) so we don’t lose it again…